real changes are coming along the road

2010-01-11T15:40:00.004+08:00

when hungger took place, nothing beats the growling stomach. too much things has been happening till i neglected it and she was too desperate for my attention.

2009-12-13T12:44:00.001+08:00

"the virtue of pink and the calming green that give an effect where anger is defeated by the skills of staying calm...."

2009-12-01T20:17:00.005+08:00

week 8 will be here in 5 days. What more can i ask when other than having 2 laboratory test, 2 theory paper to sit and 2 presentation to complete? lucky number "2"....

"and on days when i'm not somehwere among the clouds, i lay quietly beside you, night after night, never breathing a sound. that is my secret....you're all i need."

2009-11-05T13:32:00.014+08:00

i really cant recall when was the last time i update this blog. too much things has been happening and i hardly have anytime for my own.

in anothers, i'll be updating on what has been happening.

let may tak eyou on a ride people!

four hours of break equals to darah for the second time plus lunch at banquet equals to skip of lecture and head home.

"ARGH!!!!"

"aaaaaaaaahh!!!!"

so much of shouting on the 30th octoberr 2009 at Mandai night safari.

whats next?

dinner at manhattan fish with the kick butt people at plaza singapura was awesome. good companion plus good people plus good joke equals to extreme laughter.

she commented "only you can be me.."

much fun comes with hardwork. saturday and sunday was a hectic day. 4 performances in 2 days. however, it turns out well. sham, great job!!

bradel height cc deepavali celebration

up next is weding at tampines st 42.

deparaya celebration at marine parade

thats for now.

"i wonder how sincere are you in wanting clear the mess..."

2009-11-05T13:32:00.002+08:00

adrenaline and cortisol level is increasing every minute. statistic and research method is the biggest killer. brain breakdown. kidding, i'm not. a day of for my barin. its totally shut.

bye all!

2009-10-27T20:17:00.004+08:00

Someone asked me, "Why do you keep loving someone who doesn't love you back? There are tons of fish in the water." I simply replied... "Just because it's also water, would you drink from the sea?"

person perception = first impression

our knowledge and expectation on others always form on first impression. with more contact, they form a fuller and richer impression that determine how they behave towards each other.

so what was your first impression on me?

"when we are in a good mood, we see people positively, on the other hand, when we are in a bad mood, we see others negatively.."

often perception is subjecive rather than objective. agree?

we have always been trying to find the cause to a person behaviour which is also known as attribution, which involve 2 different kind of attribution.

firstly: dispositional/internal attribution (involve attitude/personality
secondly: situational/external attribution (involve the environment)

often, when we succeed, we would think that dipositional attribution is the factor, however, when failure is the case, we would definitely says that situational attribution contribute to the factor....

example when a relationship fall apart people would often says "looking at the situation we are facing now, i dont think things will work out..."

however, on the other hand when the relationship is in the bubble of the air people would often says "see...who makes thing working?"

to a certain extent, i need you to think, reflect and anlyse.

till then....................

2009-10-24T10:21:00.002+08:00

2009-10-20T20:10:00.007+08:00

read:birds of feather flock together? quack quak, opposites attracts?

opposite attracts: social physchologist found that, whether choosing friend or falling in love, we are most attracted to people whose traits are DIFFERENT FROM our own.

ques: why do you think this is the case?

on the other hand

similarity attracts: social physchologist found that, wheter choosing friends or fallin gin love, we are most attracted to people whose traits are SIMILAR TO our own.

ques: why do you think this is the case?

oppinion from each individual differ. try walking down orchard road and analyse out of many 10 couples, how many couple look compatible and how many hot guys is dating a fat girl?

we are living in a world full of choices and open to oppinions. we often decide on things that we choose. some may give up and some may perservere. so for you, what is your choice?

read: absence makes heart grow fonder? croak croak, out of sight, out of mind?

we often thinks we know everything. but have you really wonder if common sense really works?

even proverbs could differ. however, it depends on how we look into things from different angle and how we could take things in hand.

sometimes, we are usually covered by hindsight bias where the tendency to exaggerate, after learning an outcome, one's ability to have foreseen how something turned out. which is also kwown as "i-knew-it-all-along" phenomenon.

we will only learn things when we have experience it.

back to it, does common sense really works?

the point is not that common sense is predictably wrong but rather, common sense usually is right AFTER THE FACT. hence, we may deceive ourselves into thinking that we know & knew more than we do and did.

okey. 4 straight hourse of lectures on biology plus social physchology plus health physcology, 1 hour lunch break and 3 hours of straight tutorial on pharmacology and adult nursing. this is the outcome.

say "yeay" for the retain of information.

"anything seems commonplace, once explained."

2009-10-20T00:11:00.005+08:00

through thick and think, i love you babes.

blood + head rolling on the floor + violence + heartless humans = DARAH!

to complete the whole date, caramel frappucino at fullerton starbucks together with chocolate cake bought buy hafeez for the one who turn nineteen.

happy turning nineteen farlinah adam.

2009-10-18T15:55:00.005+08:00

a trip down to arab street for kiwi caramel on the 3rd october 2009.

from a frown to a smile thats how i would describe them.

2009-10-17T15:26:00.000+08:00

"tried to compromise but maybe i just fail to be a good girlfriend"

2009-10-14T08:54:00.019+08:00

wishy wishy woossshhhhh!!!!

i know i know i have not been updating my blog for the longgest time. but hey, you cant blame me. busy with attachment, work, show anddddd.....*winks*

IMH posting was definitely fun. physically insane mentally crazy. a place fore me i guess..hehe....up next is eid mubarak with the TMA dancers... on the 29 sep 2009 i guess.

chika is the name of the cat. trust me, she is too adorable to be smack at the butt. hehe.

up next is chalet with the dancers on the 3 oct 2009 at aloha changi.

the game mistress.

hari raya show at macpherson on the 4 oct 2009.

lastly show at singapore arts museum.

anyway good morning sunshine!

2009-09-23T11:44:00.001+08:00

wishing all a bless eid mubarak 2009.

ps: brother is behind the camera.

2009-09-22T14:56:00.002+08:00

he will be away for the next 3 weeks. sob sobs. And he know how much i will miss him...=(

2009-09-22T14:07:00.009+08:00

wishy wishy woosh!!

finally i could find sometime to update this blog of mine. if some of you have been wondering why i have gone really silent this is because i was away for 2 weeks of attachment followed by 2 weeks of exam period followed by 3 weeks of attachment.

yup yup yup. you guess it right, its one after another.

anyway kakak have officcially graduated from monash university. congrates sis.

that's about it...

2009-09-06T11:41:00.011+08:00

family iftar with the maternal side cum 19th birtday celebration on the 30th August 2009.

big feast specially for my day upon my indirect request. i just love home cook seafood. the best seafood i can ever have. thank you ibu!

the day i turn a year older.

cousins bonding session will never be a problem in us. anyway, welcoming our new family members, muhammad darwyish.

2009-08-24T20:57:00.002+08:00

"trully feel devastated.....

and all i want was you who never stop calling me munchkins..."

2009-08-23T11:28:00.005+08:00

the day we run down the hill holding hands....

....we wore green together unexpectedly and played carem....

...had teh tarik at simpang after mad jack....

...chill and relax at starbucks cause i was late...

and i just miss these two girls who often make my day. promise to meet you sweet after you exam ends for buke....

2009-08-17T14:18:00.008+08:00

unexpected was the word that can best describe the inner feeling. only one reason that could explain the why our birthday is being celebrated in advance. since the arrival of ramadhan is way before our birthday, thus its being celebrated before hand so at least they could have the chance to spread the cream on our face. in short the word is "sabo".

anyway, here is a good way to sabo the birthday boy/girl if you have more than one birthday babies. blind fold them, and play a mini guessing game.

how it goes?

place a hand infront of them, and make them guess whose hands does that belong to by touch the hand only. if the answer is wrong, simply spread the creame on their face.

p/s: you can spread the cream at any point of time cause by the end of the day, they won't know if the answer is right or wrong.

photaking was never a good idea after the game cause this will simply happened.

and by the end of the day, this is how we look like....

happy advance birthday to aisyah and arifah!!!!

2009-08-16T20:32:00.001+08:00

"an action that goes without saying.."

one word, "acceptance".

aniway, ibu bought 1 big tub of paddle pop rainbow.

sense of sastifaction before ramadhan arrive.=D

2009-08-16T00:48:00.011+08:00

a short trip to KL during the national day holiday to ease of the stress from work and school. a brief describtion of 3 days 2 night holiday.

had nasi lemak serve in basket at the highway pit stop plus waffle.

roti papa with honey lemon ice drink from papa rich is always finger licking good.

and here is the last pit stop at pasir ris downtown to have the kerang rebus and satay for dinne before heading home.

the day where i let my feeling go after 9 days of holding on to it.

2009-08-03T23:20:00.010+08:00

wonder how i spent my weekend?

it is still with the same bunch of crazy peeps which always came up of unusual ideas.

saturday was a day where most of us were trying very hard to loose our tone and tones of transfat stored in the body before sunday arrive.

if u wonder what were we doin to loose fats, its was roller blading and cycling! however, as usual, before we loose fats, we gain fats and loose fats and gain fat again...so how does it work? i myself have no idea. ahakz!

have u ever try walking in public with thick make up and over dress clothing? if you havent try doin it, cause that is what we did. we make our way down to rollen resaurant at parkways parade using our pair of leg. it was fun though.

rentak sahabat was the title. a little touch on arabic concept to be a little different. comments are freely to be made if you have any.

in reality, "originality" will/can never be original cause it will always start of with an inspiration baby.

to be polite, i'll end with a good nite ladies and gentlemen.

PS: 9 days.

2009-07-26T23:07:00.010+08:00

all i need was......

all time favourite food...scientifically proven that chocoloate increase your sex hormones but i don't feel it cause i'm immune to it. okey farlinah adam, dont think dirty okey *winks*.

16 hours of guest interaction training, 8 hours of world of tea/coffee. WDA test...what's next in the list? i got no idea. CBTL really occupy my time and weekends. but still......

but still, i manage to pay a visit to mosi cafe for dinner with the crazy but yet enjoyable people and.......

and the day dont end with only a chit chatty dinner but i still manage to squeez in the last minute plan to meet the sister and fiance together with his cousin at nasrin restaurant for sheesha and banana split.

no, it doesnt end there either, we pay pasir ris park a visit at the very last minute AFTER a good bath to ease of the childhood deprive.....

and we said good nite at 0230 hours.

patience that i hope will last....

2009-07-09T01:22:00.003+08:00

It's 3 minute to 0200 hours darlings but here i am still awake with the companion of a pencil, eraser and highlighter. oh and not forgetting the earaser dust together with halo music beat by beyonce coming from my laptop.

good nite.

2009-07-02T20:26:00.004+08:00

20 June 2009- 2 performances for new citizen at marina parade cc and a wedding dinner at chua chu kang.

good nite.

2009-06-24T12:24:00.002+08:00

happy father's day to mr mohammad dali bin yahaya.

loves,
your wife and children <3

2009-06-19T10:31:00.002+08:00

"a friend that hold my hands but touches my heart is the one that will understand you in and out....."

2009-06-18T18:51:00.004+08:00

i know it has been sometimes since i last update my blog. but here are some of the events that i can remember to share. first and for most is ths kenduri cum sister's engangement cum open house that falls on the 31st May 2009.

the pakcik-pakcik marhaban.

food food food and more food.

some of the dulang from the girl's side. main attraction: the swatch watch.

part of the duling from the guy's side. main attarction: the engagement ring.

sorry cupcakes but i can't possibly post all the 15 dulang from the girl's side and 17 dulang from the guy's side. i just compile anything that looks good in my eyes. oh and by the way, everything from the girl's side was handmade and design by our creativity. nothing is pre-order.

the sister and family.

next was Indra Nila Kirana show at Sentosa incited by the Amara Sanctuary Resort. an Asia-Pacific CHRIE Conference.

item title: Kipas Hayunan

next was ushering for Gentarasa 2009. i must say its a new experience in handling the big crowd.

lastly was a trip to the Singapore Zoological with the SATs. i had fun i must say. i know that im behaving worst than a nine year old kid. deprive childhood i guess.

last say, can i be a zoo keeper or a nurse for animal and not human? cause it seems that animal will be better at undertsanding humand instruction rather than the human themselves.

nitez naugthy people!

2009-06-02T23:25:00.001+08:00

"what is the point of doin something when you don't feel the enjoyment? please darlings, i need you to understand what i really feel......"

2009-05-26T23:03:00.002+08:00

"look in deeper. try to discover the thought in feelings that she have in silence. visualise and try to analyse. one word, 'perfectionist'. she belief she isn't one cause she knows the meaning of 'no one is perfect'. but she try very hard to be overcome what she feels but by the end of the day, she will break down in silence under her pillow. not wanting to let anybody know.

she try very hard to give in to others but by the end of the day, she wonder if ever there is somebody that is willing to think about her. never once she expect to be the somebody in other people eyes or try to please the others. what you see is the best of what she have and what she is, is the best that she could be.

she try not hurt anybody in her circumference but at the end of the day she is the one who will feel the hurt. never she will let herself feel satisfied first before others could feel it. she get frustrated, angry, disappointed and irritated. but what she can do was to remain silent again. all she could wish now was to be in her mother's womb and let the reincarnation process begins so as she would have the chance to ammend things that doesnt go by her way.

i apologies of the wrong doings that i have did. but nevertheless i appreciate those people who have accpeted me as who i am and for what i am."

2009-05-26T11:13:00.004+08:00

its a pleasant feeling when we manage to give a mini surprise birthday party to our sweet fit. wish you all the best and good luck in everything you do. wish you an everlasting love with hadi.

2009-05-24T18:28:00.009+08:00

Karya 2009 Bakau Yang Sepi was held at yew thee cc by Azpirasi was something very amusing. i just love the way how they dance contempary with clothe and stick. very impressive i must say, though i don't understand the story behind it despite the fact that people around me have tried to explain. Good job to all for the 1 hour show.

okey. i think i had too much free time and what i did here was a compilation of the previous performance.

2009-05-21T21:53:00.001+08:00

Malam Perdana Andayu 2009 was held last tuesday. an official step down ceremony for the graduates and an offical announcement for the newly 2009/2010 members.

monthers' day is not only for your own individual mom, but its a day for all mothers' in singapore. since i have already do my part as a daughter, niece and grand-daughter to my beloved mom, aunty and grandmother, i took the opportunity to cheer up those mothers' outside that have done wonders to their own family. up next is the mothers' day show picture that we perform last saturday. sham, once again i thank you for the opportunity to teach me on the hair-do. oh and i love my hair!

i cant remember when was the last time i pay the singapore zoological garden a visit. but now i feel satisfied! deprieve of early childhoos we decide to pay the zoo a visit and to my surprise there is like 1001 animals i dont know it exist! i swear we were behaving worst than a kid! but is okey, people always says that there is still kid in an individual. still by the end of the day is the happy rini.

lastly i miss my girls badly. i seriosuly cannot remember when was the last time i date them. i know we are suppose to go on a date this coming saturday but somehow i could not make it due to car prac in the afternoon and karya in the evening. i apologies. i'll join you girls for the next outing, i promise.

2009-05-10T22:51:00.007+08:00

happy mother's day cum happy 26th b'day!

undeniable fact, without them there will be no us.

when cousins meet, nothing attract us. i really appreciate the fact that im born in a family that always piorities family issues. attandance is 99% full excluding the 1% who can't join us due to work. ibu i know you won't be reading this but i appreciate your presence w/o any regret. you are totally unreplacable. i love you to the bits with no confussion.

okey lets move aways fron the mothers' day issue. i know this is so updated. but yeah here is the 2 wedding that i attend for the past weeks.

my treasure my piority.

we may often argue but we have interest at heart.

i made this!

2009-05-03T20:27:00.010+08:00

2009 MCG ORIENTATION for the freshies' falls on the 29 April 2009. a hectic and exausting day but yet i survive! tell me who can open their eyes wide and big from 0500HRS till 2300 HRS without any 5 min nap in between for 2 days! and still i need to get my but out of my bed by 0500 HRS the next morning! and yes, i'm can still be on time! =D

wedding show for the second time at Lagun Sari. woke up as early as 0730 HRS and Sham, i manage to turn the 4 girls from an ungly duckling into a pricess with the hair do plus starving myself cause there is simply no food!!! Clap hands for me please...hehe..

a hungry person is an angry person. meet the other 3 at mad jack for dinner to hagen daaz for chocolate fondue. ice-cream dip in chocolate is fingger licking good!

2009-04-19T15:48:00.002+08:00

being such a big time idiot i accidently deleted all my pictures in my memory card. and now my post will be the most random post without any pictures. Monday will soon arrive in 8 hours and 10 minutres which mean my attachment at KKH for another 1 week will soon begin before i'll be sent to CGH for 3 weeks.

can i say i had fun for this weekend? =D

i wonder if you are an introvert or extrovert? what should i do next?

2009-04-18T12:35:00.008+08:00

after watching the video at hidayah's blog can i say i trully miss secondary school life?

2009-04-17T15:33:00.004+08:00

the day begin as early as 0830 Hrs. But the energy level is still up there to fill my weekends by going to Minds Cafe for few rounds of board games and after which karaoke session. *okey i know my voice is soooo "sumbang"*. supper at simpang and reach home nearly pass mid-night.

the alarm rang as early as 0500Hrs, just to be in school as late as 0700 Hrs. but still i survice till 0100 Hrs the next morning.

call me insane will you?

2009-04-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

2009-04-05T21:03:00.004+08:00

i love her to the bits!

and i dont regreat helping you in doing anything cause i know by the end of the day you still treat me like a princess.

me: "AAAHHHHH!!!!!!"
the people: 'turn head and look at me'

you want to know the reason why? caue i was the only one in the cinema shouting. unborn was the movie we decide on at 1855 HRS show at vivo. and tell me about it, i was too scared to go home by myself when i asked daddy to fetch me at tampines MRT.

i know im such a coward! hehe.

2009-04-04T01:30:00.002+08:00

"a pair of feet that needs your companion."

2009-04-02T22:55:00.001+08:00

never i knew that i will get along with her when the first time i saw. and today everything changes. to kill timei decide to meet her at e-hub for a game of bowling and dinner at BK. the rest of the evening was just a good talk at the water breaker by the beach with peace when suddenly a rat dash across us which we than decide to leave and head home. hmph!

2009-04-01T11:12:00.003+08:00

3 weeks of attachment end last friday, 27 March 2009 at 2100 Hrs. 2 weeks at pediatric ward and 1 week at gynae ward teaches me alot of new things that i did not realise how important it is. but of course, the experience i gain at CGH was much better interms of performing my skills and theory into practice in a real situation. on the other hand, working at KKH really test how strong are you emotionally.

tell me about it how do you feel having to assist the doctors and nurses n abortion cases? 5 days at gynae ward and i see more than 10 abortion cases. at young at 8 weeks and as big as 24 weeks. as little as i know, i did not realise that you can see the full features of the featus as early as 16-20 weeks of pregnancy till the day i saw my first ever abortion case on the 24 March 2009.

nevetheless i wonder what was going through the mummy's mind when they decide to abort. not to mention those unwanted preganncy but what reason do they have for those who are married with kids? my heart sank upon seeing the poor featus gasping for air looking as though they are seeking for help from us so that they are able to survive.

i feel like sharing this email that i receive 2 years back on "pregnancy is sexy and abortion is not"

Month 1
Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I
have all my organs. I love the sound
of your voice. Every time I hear it, I
wave my arms and legs. The sound of
your heart beat is my favorite lullaby.

Month 2
Mommy, today I learned how to suck my
thumb. If you could see me, you could
definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm
not big enough to survive outside my
home though. It is so nice and warm in
here.

Month 3
You know what Mommy, I'm a girl!! I
hope that makes you happy. I always
want you to be happy. I don't like it
when you cry. You sound so sad. It
makes me sad too, and I cry with you
even though you can't hear me.

Month 4
Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It
is very short and fine, but I will
have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my
time exercising. I can turn my head
and curl my fingers and toes, and
stretch my arms and legs. I am
becoming quite good at it too.

Month 5
You went to the doctor today. Mommy,
he lied to you. He said that I'm not a
baby. I am a baby Mommy, your baby. I
think and feel. Mommy, what's abortion?

Month 6
I can hear that doctor again. I don't
like him. He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home. The
doctor called it a needle. Mommy what
is it? It burns! Please make him stop!
I can't get away from it! Mommy!! HELP
me!!

Month 7
Mommy, I am okay. I am in Heaven. An angel told me
about abortion. Why didn't you want
me, Mommy?
Every Abortion Is Just . . .
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

now tell me what you feel? so the ladies don't do it if u can't face it cause by the end of the day you are killing a sinless life.

on the other hand, 2 weeks at peds ward was great! relatively my patients can be as young as 1 month and as old as 12 years. but of course i get trully irritated with kids who is being so frightful to an extent when they know you are walking towards them they will start crying like as though we are giving them a hurtful injection. argh!

2009-03-15T10:50:00.008+08:00

i know its been sometime since i last update due to my sickening plus irritating brother who cause my lappy being unfriendly to me again.

3 weeks of attachment due on the 27 March 2009 at 9 pm. cant wait.

mean while let update on what happened a week before my attachment.

car practical from mon-thurs continously. and zoo trip on a friday followed by to marina barrage after that. dance training on a saturday and wedding show on the next day.

2009-03-05T12:42:00.001+08:00

"how i wish you are there to call me love when i wake up."

an unexplainable feeling.

2009-03-03T17:51:00.003+08:00

wedding show at 114 bedok reservoir road last sunday was an unexpected expiriences but still we do the group name proud. trust me.

oh and sham, i know i do you proud by making a good job for the hair. *winks*

2009-02-23T12:26:00.002+08:00

exams are totally out and semestral break in.

4 weeks of purely semestral break and 3 weeks of attachment at KKH.

i wonder how she can fit in to be part of my big happy family. a mother of 3 but still behaving like a virgin girl. how heartbreaking and disappointed can we feel when the whole big family came over to your house to celebrate your little one birthday and there you are hidding in the kitchen/bed room and not communicating with us. we are not expecting you to chit chat non stop but have the courtesy to say HI. the very minimum you can do is to AT LEAST SMILE.

oh dear, can you please stop being the ma'am and thinks highly of yourself when you know you are not up there yet.

some people just don't know how to fit in with the sorrounding.

i wonder why. hhhhmmm....

2009-02-04T21:01:00.003+08:00

oranges. reunion dinner drama at 9 pm is a must.

2009-02-01T23:09:00.002+08:00

sarah: "can you take picture?"
me: "with who?"
sarah: "with sarah.."

mind you, she just turn four this month and she can really speak.

2009-01-28T01:57:00.012+08:00

clock have just strike 1:58 am. here i am unable to sleep and decide to go online.

January 28 is the stated date and and seriousl have no idea where should i start updating.

NYP production is over which is eqal to no intense training like before. however, a week of training at Marine Parade CC for a last minute show at SP.

Next was "girls day out" with the 2 sunshine. a pretty short day together i guess

fun with the girls? definitely a yes. but not forgetting the one and only grandfather that turn 80 on 11 January 2009, i guess.

small family indeed, due to mummy only have 3 sibling in total included her. family picture was taken without the uncle's family that is in Qatar which makes it look smaller than usual. but still the atmosphere never fails to fill with laughter. oh and did i tell you that the whole family of mine went to the studio to take a family potrait? here goes the picture.

and the rest are kept in the folder for the eyes of mine. down to earth for serious business. back to square one which is school. exam begins on the 12 Febuary 2009. yup 2 days before Valentine's Day. oh and i have 1 essay due next monday at 12 noon but i have yet to start on it. help anyone?

2009-01-26T11:33:00.002+08:00

a seat that sacrifices 4 years of everything.

is it worth it? you think and decide.

2009-01-08T00:43:00.010+08:00

i know its a bit too late but still HAPPY TWO-ZERO-ZERO-NINE!!!

its January but i'll be updating what happened in December 2008.

not as hectic as November that's for sure.

performance at Marine Parade CC.

wishing ezzati happy 18 birthday!!

lastly, an update for NYP MCG that fall on the 30th of December 2008. LAYAR ANDAYU 2008, Siang Menjadi Kenangan, Malam Menjadi Impian. a trully success with all the hard work.

for my friends who came down to support, thanks you very much. your support is greatly appreciated.

for those who have miss it, here are the videos that i can share.

lastly, my two lil cousins is back from Qatar permenantly!

sarah umairah

siti raihanah

"as much as how much i adore these girls thats how much i despise you moroon"

2008-12-14T13:07:00.020+08:00

a very long post indeed. but i't will be a simplify one.

let me trace back all to way to early November 2008.

where and how should i start.

lets begin from early november.

TMA performance at Macpherson if m not mistaken.

next on the list was our 2nd performance during the month of Nov.

followed by 4PM Tadika Graduation day.

next is lunch date with farlinah adam at Tong Seng after school but unfortunately Siti Nurulfah could't make it due to she's not feeling well. will me up soon okey girls?

this picture makes me realise that i have the minimum picture of them. so farlinah adam get the idea. *hint hint*

not forgetting my day with the SATs to celebrate the November babies.

Happy Birthday Sa'adah and Farah!

besides just celebrating we had fun by playing some stupid games that some of us learn in camps or interacting seesion and bowling at marina square was fun!

apart from SATs, there's another 2 more November babies in TMA. but unfortunately i couldn't join them cause i have my SATs November baby to take care off.

but whateve it is. Happy Birthday Amalyasa and Hisham! im very sure you guys had fun with the rest at Sentosa.

after much comitment and enjoyment down to serious business. test and ICA occupy me close to 100%. 3 papers to do in 1 week. follow by 1 practical test and 1 ICA presentation.

haha. something just makes me laugh. tell me whwhich group will be late for the presentation on the actual day? yes u get it right. its US. something just went wrong. we are late for 10 mins and that's not a good sign. what make it worst we didn't manage to print out the handout and notes for the lecturer. not at the SHS photocopy shop, not at SBM photocopy shop and not even the library. and yes, we were worried that we will be penalise. however we it did not happened but still our grade were affected. and i mean badly affected.

"pass yes. but not a very good grade."

hell yeah. despite having and impressive video that we shoot by ourself and a very short and sweet but informative powerpoint slides but still, it didn't help. just for small little mistake it affects everything. but its okey, i'm still fine with it. nobody to be blame.

after days and weeks concentrating on my books, i go on in helping a friend of mine in doin his script writing for his short filming.

unfortunately i dont have any picture to post for this.

after much of comitment with books the thought of having a good rest is there but unfornately i still i have my commitment in dancing for Layar Adayu 2008. organize by NYP MCG. it will be held on the 30th of decembeer 2008. training stretch from October all the way to December. and its 5 days a week. and at the same time, i get myself busy with TMA performance which fall on the 13th December, which is yesterday.

oh and finally, I PASS MY FINAL THEORY TEST, in short its FTT. yes, i' only left with TP but i dont know when it is cause i need to finish my practical. but it will done ASAP.

but still, despite the very pack schedule, i really thank ALLAH for everything. i manage to go thorough all training and difficulties with an open heart. thanks to "HIM" cause i pass all my test and exams be it in school or for my driving liscene. syukur alhamdullilah

lastly, an outing with the TMA dancers to marina grage, last saturday after training was a great one. but unfortunaely we didnt spent much time there cause Sham was not feeling well.

and what happened yesterday will be updated in my next post together with the picture.

finally, my chairman for SATs will ferry off to Batam tomorrow for 1 month due to his school attachment.

me and sa'adah will be seeing him off tomorrow at 9am at Habourfront. its a definate that he will be miss by all his family, friends and his special ones.

2008-12-10T00:20:00.002+08:00

okey. im getting frustrated, irritated and aggitated!

HOTMAIL IS WORKING AT THE VERY SUPER SLOW PACE! NOT JUST SUPER BUT EXTREMLY SLOW!

come on hotmail, dont test my patience?!!!

2008-12-03T00:11:00.002+08:00

"seriosuly you have some underlying issue with me. and i bet its a never ending issue. but who cares. i dont give a damn about it. come directly to my face to tell me off when the next time i say that u are egoistic. i dare you"

im getting too personal

2008-11-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

to whom it may concern,

as far as possible, i try to give you the fullest co-operation for the presentation that you are in-charge for. but why can't i get the fullest co=operation from you? hey, dont behave like a kid, can you pretty please put aside our personal matter? to me it doesn't matter anymore.

if you say you are giving me the co-operation and temwork attitude how come i could get any respond when i ask for oppinions? when i was telling you what i have in mind, do you actually listen to what i have to say? all you do was to sit and joke around? why do i take the effort to waste my saliva when the rest already know what they are suppose to do? its all because i'm trying my very best to increase the chances of us, as a group, of getting better gardes.

im not asking much from you, but im seeking and begging your co-operation for the very last 2 presentation, i hope, that we have. put aside you ego. once all done, I WONT BUG YOU anymore and you can show the maximum ego that you have. i dont care. trust me for that.

2008-11-20T20:24:00.007+08:00

honestly, at times i didnt enjoy my day in school especially when there is things still hanging and i dont see there is an end to it. despite the fact that i have been spending 70%-90% of my day in school at times i never fail to count down the number of hours im left with. and i never fail to look forward to go home, plans after school and the weekends. b'cause i know that is the time where people around me will make me smile and forget what it feels inside. but still i know, going to school is not the matter of who will be talking to you and who's not but the fact is to do well and change whatever you can. never the less i'm getting use to the situation.

on the othe hand, i appreciate those who are around me. *smile*

my family, my piority, my concern, my hearnt and soul, my happiness and my everyhting

the girls that have been giving me the strength and encouragemnt. you each stand an equal place in my heart. love you girls!

p/s: to whom it may concern,
be sincere when you want to talk to me. never take one step forward and move back again. never the less if u dont feel like talking im fine with it. after all im getting use to be thereated invisible.

2008-11-14T14:15:00.009+08:00

now than i'm brave enough to say that i can concentrate on my studies.

major events are all over. after 3 continous week i have been having performance and continous weeks/months i have been going Tadika 4PM to get things ready for the garduation day on 12 november, im finally free from everything.

but unfortunatey before i could even take a break and have a good rest, ICA exams and presentation stats to kick in. Done with HS 1088(Childbearing of Family and Child) presenation. 1 down, 6 more to go. coming up next in the list is Biology ICA this coming Tuesday and presentation for Development in Physcology and Health Prefessional. Not forgetting ICA theory exams on Nursing Clinical Lab and Intoduction to Sociology on 3rd Dec which is 3 weeks from now. and yes Nursing Clinical Lab ICA practical exams is in week 8, which is also 3 weeks from now.

wwooohhoooo!!!! im not surprise that THE STRES SLEVEL IS UP THERE!!!

whats due in week 6?

-homework 3 for Health Assesment
-CBL discussion on CFC

here are some candy for the eye from the last week performance.

that's all for now. more picture will be up for even on 12 november 2008.

2008-11-09T15:21:00.003+08:00

sunday. 9th november 2008. 1521 hours.

despite the super hectic schedule for the whole of this week. apart from the super tiring practices. aside from the very limited and rushing time that i have. i trully enjoy my saturday. it is just an unexplanable experience. no wonders in my limited dictionary could explain what i felt. but too bad i guess. the day last within that 24 hours. now back to my normal and usual routine of going to and fro to school and back home. 5 things in the list due in less than 129 hours. exams and assessment begin as fast as 2 weeks from now.

I CAN REALLY FEEL THE STRESS LRVRL FOR YEAR 1 SEMESTER 2 IS UP THERE.

to all good day!

oh and guess what? MUMMY AND DADDY TOGETHER WITH THE SIBLING GOING FOR HOLIDAY AT BEIJING. THE MOST "FUN" PART I CANNOT GO!

2008-11-06T16:56:00.000+08:00

what is the thing that is inside me? its just unexplainable. i dont really let out what i feel but at times i got no choice.

sad? happy? angry? stress? disappointed? discourage? everything.

i miss smiling ang laughing sincerely that comes from deep down my heart. listen to me. listen to what i feel and understand it. dont miss interprete it.

for all i know, i want a normal life. for all i want now is to cry.

i am crying emotionally.

you maybe very secreative. i may PRETEND not to know. i may PRETEND to be stupid. but the fact you can never know if my intepretation maybe right. but still ill go through my days as per normal.

LYING? only allah knows.

2008-11-05T14:17:00.003+08:00

here goes the individual shots for the last 2 weeks performances.

2008-11-02T10:00:00.002+08:00

am i pushing myself too much that i really feel super duperly tired?

schedule is still fill with activities as usual. no no no. not the fun kind of activities but the work type of activities. i went out as early at 9.30 am and i reach home as late as 11.30 pm and i slept as extremely late as 3 am this mornng. and now im awak as early as 9.20 am to finish up my school work load before going for my practical at 2.30 pm and perfomance at 7.30pm. school starts as early as 9 am and finish as late as 6 pm is totally not a good help. sounds bad ah? it is really bad

10 19 am. i'll get going. see you when i see you.

2008-10-08T00:17:00.003+08:00

its 8 october 2008. 0018 hours.

tired. hungry. sleepy. but plan for the rest of the year still have to go on.

7 oct 2008 -e-tial test @ 1015 hrs-1205 hrs.
-BTT test @ 1250 hrs-1340 hrs.
-SATs exco meeting @ 1400hrs-1630hrs.
-tarian @ 1800hrs-2230hrs.

8 oct 2008 -raya outing with NR0802 @ 11hrs-1900hrs.
-SATs general meeting @ 2000hrs.

13 oct 2008 -Farlinah's 18th birthday.
-First day of school
-tarian general meeting @ 1800hrs

17 oct 2008 -INK raya performance.

18 oct 2008 -SATs raya outing @ 0900hrs

19 oct 2008 - INK raya outing

26 oct 2008 -outside tarian performance (TBC)

1 nov 2008 -1st prac @ 1245hrs-1425 hrs

2 nov 2008 -2nd prac @ 1435 hrs- 1600 hrs

5 nov 2008 - SATs tadika graduation reherseal.

8 nov 2008 -outside tarian performance (TBC)

12 nov 2008 -tadika graduation day 2008 @ 1930hrs-2130hrs.

dec 2008(TBC)- LAYAR ANDAYU PRODUCTION!

tell me people can i cope?

ASSINGMENT, PRESENTATION, SCHOOL EXAMS DATE, SCHOOL TIMA-TABLE, TARIAN TRAINING IS NOT INCLUDED!

LASTLY,

2008-09-29T01:50:00.008+08:00

breakfast cum preparation for raye at granny hows was superb!!! making session for ketupat was fun!!!

busy at work!!!!

wondering how to start off with the "kelongsong"

she got the "kelongsong" right.

excited to buke!!!

getting on the right track!!!!

FORCUSING!!!!

everyon getting busy!!!

teamwork!!!

this is where we gain our skills from....

BEFORE!!!

AFTER!!!

i had fun with the cousins!!!! and now im near to ready for raya!!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!!!

2008-09-05T20:41:00.002+08:00

i miss school.
i miss going tadika 4PM to do my volunteering work.
i miss my 2 sunshine (oline & ulfah) that always make my day.
i miss my NR 0802.
i miss going shopping.
i miss slacking around at startbucks/coffee bean.
i miss having fun.
i miss cam-whoring.

weekend have arrive!!!! let me make this weekend a good one!!!!!

2008-08-27T22:53:00.003+08:00

attachment was fine apart from the new shoes that is killing my feet.

besides that i'm purely and truthfully lazy to update due to 8 hours of standing and i'm extremely tired to give this a good post.

2008-08-20T23:38:00.009+08:00

its was an unplan meet. but who cares. after months of planning and thinking when can we get a perfect day and date to meet, finally the unplan day arrive. and yeah, i feel good and satisfied. no matter how bored or sad i am they will definitely make my day and i feel complete and that can't be denied.

its 11.49 pm. close to 12 am and i have yet to study anything for tomorrow final paper. i guess shall start mugging for tomorrow paper now which also mean i dont have a choice but not to tune in ealy. i guess my brain cells and tissues membrain are just too tired to do futher critical thinking and memorizing that half of it are already switched off. so do you think i can do it?

2008-08-10T22:21:00.009+08:00

THEY DID NOT KISS!!!! JUST AN ACT!

for sure the bonds is getting strongger. from school to beach road for lunch than to plaza sing for a window shop to swensen's for ice cream. a treat from mummy!!! from swensen's to arcade where we really had fun. from archade to istana park for photo taking session, once done home sweet home.

this is what happened when all the info for bio is drill through our brain for 2 hours.

2008-06-17T00:06:00.002+08:00

trip to tioman will be update soon, i hope. i'm such a lazy bump. i know. dont mention it. hehe.

"i'm doin fine. i'm doin great. though w/o u by my side i doin preety good. dont worry boy, forget me if u have too cause here am i tinking nothing about you.."

2008-06-07T23:33:00.014+08:00

its 7 january 2008, 11.39 pm. here am i letting my mind run wild. ungu-tercipta untukku is what im listening to currently.

days, weeks, years have pass. going through the thick and thin, ups and downs together. memories is created between us. none of us would have dream this will happened but i can see it coming.

from strangers we became friends, from friends we became an item. now we are back to square one. i have see u change. from a school boy turning into a men during your National Service days. from a NS men u turn into a working men. from sunrise to sunset, working hard trying your best to give me happiness. from travelling by public transport we move own to our own tarnsport. i treausre the moments we went everything together. i appreciate the chance i have in seeing you change.

there's a saying "expect the unexpected." i realise that one day if we are not meant to be together, we will move on with our own ways. 1st june at 12.45 am u msg me, "im sorry i cant be bothered anymore, euu just move on with ur life n do whatever u want..i dont want any relationship or any shit to do with euu anymore...i think its enough..im sorie...euu take care of urself." to no surprise, the moment i receive that msg no tears roll down my cheeks. enough for me to kept on crying for the pass years. i told myself, the day when i found out you were out with her is the very last day that i'll cry for u.

here i am leading my way to my very own path. a path where i know on the very end there'll be someone sincere waiting for me, insyallah. 7 months have pass. i thank allah for giving me all the strength to stand on my 2 feet. i know i will manage to pull through myself. u left me 2 weeks of hari raya, a couple of days before my "O" levels. and i know that point of time despite us not being together you are still there to hear me crying. but now things have change.

to the boy out there, i wish all the best. i pray hard for your happiness. sent my regards to the whole family of yours and thank them for accepting me as who i am.

never say i love you if u dont care,
never talk about feeling if there aren't there.

never hold my hand if u gonna breka my heart,
never say you are going to if u dont plan to start.

never look into my eyes if all you do is a lie,
never say hi if u really mean good bye.

if you mean forever than say u will try,
never say forever cause forever makes me cry....

"in memories"
seainnfiurl
since beginning of 2005-1st june 2008

2008-05-16T19:26:00.005+08:00

i treasure them more than anything else.

i swear i miss them like nobody business.

nyp class photo

S.A.T group photo.

currently i'm too busy to update. chances is i'll be on hiatus

2008-02-08T20:31:00.000+08:00

15 january 2008- 8 ferbuary 2008 its close to a month that i have not been updating my blog. guess its still not too late to wish HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!

24 january 2008- 8 febuary 2008. close to 2 weeks that i last saw farlinah n nurulfah. due to a non stop working schedule till i dont even have the time to touch the computer or even have fun. can u just imagine how tired it is to work for 18 days with no off! including my weekends! not even on chinese new year. oh yah. acctually i did have 1 day off, that is on the 1st day of CNY (after working of 18 days and that is my only day off) and back to work again. oh and i think i still have a long way to go at Ritz Carlton. dont intend to quit any soon cause if not i'll be bored to death.

but despite my busy day i still manage to drop by east cost on 26 january 2008 to celebrate sheik's 19 birthday but still i went home way too early, even before the celebration ends. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOY!!! hope its not too late to wish u. hahah. wish u all the best and everlasting happiness wif nur afifah okey. hope to see you guys soon for any event coming up.

the happiest birthday boy i ever seen.

we girls can't miss having fun.

my joy and laughter.

now i really feel like eating sushi! ramen ten or fish & co anyone??? please........

2008-01-15T21:15:00.000+08:00

yes baybeh! its been sometimes since i last update this blog. so dead kan?

nevermind. let me recall back what have been going on.

*think* *think* *think*

BINGO!!

once a upona time i had dinner together with farlinah and fahmi. sumpah aku tak ingat bile but i can only remember that its a sunday when me and farlinah was not working but fahmi did. had fish & co. with them for the 1st time. like at last! okey, i know i'n so outdated but its okey. slow and steady lah katekan. while waiting, the two ladies had our donut from donut factory and sit around the fountain.

more donut for us!

yummy! seafood plater!

farlinah feeding me prawn head!!!!

okey. whats next???

Christmas Dinner at Greenhouse Rits Crlton Millenis.

again i can't remember when but its a monday. had buffet dinner. a treat from the manager cause the Xmas Kiosk girls did well for the sales. yehaa!!!

part of in-room dining ladies.

now. i really dont know what to update....

about work? no way. too much of it i guess. oh and to farlinah adam, aku rindu ngan ko giler!! date me one day. and siti nurulfah, i miss you too. where have you been?? MIA???

2007-12-29T17:51:00.000+08:00

i badly need to go shopping!!!

"i think i am doin the right thing"

remember that sentence? i thnik what you did was just bullshit my dear girl.

2007-12-16T12:54:00.000+08:00

5 min to 13:00 hrs. while waiting for the clock to strike at 15.00hrs i think i should make a quik update for my blog.

another week of a weekend off day which means i have been working for 2 weeks plus which also mean its had been the 2nd time i'm getting paid which mean i ahve been going shopping for 2 times.

sature date with the sister was fun. had my hair cut, cause i'm simply too lazy to bun up my hair everyday before going to work, and highlighte at WARS at far east. bought my working shoe for the 2nd time and the sis did some shopping. 2 pairs for her. argh! dinner at ramen ten (at last farlinah!). her treat of course. i finally find it good when she works everyday cause maybe she can treat me everytime when we go out. haha. headed to CK tangs for the birthday gift shopping. bought a G-Shock watch for the brother.

nice right? hahah.

okey..thats all folks.

2007-12-11T12:10:00.000+08:00

12.15 pm. 45 minutes left before i have to get ready to work. so make this a quick one.

work have been great despite having to do OT for the very last minute every now and than. sorrounding people are really fun. widen up my circle of friends by meeting new people, making myself feel busy so that the time flies faster and more things goes on. afternoon shift this whole week and a off day on saturday and sunday. farlinah and ulfah i miss you. "makan date" again please since all of us are busy with work so i guess we should just go to any coffee shop to have a quick dinner before heading home. and farlinah adam dont forget your treat at Ramen Ten while i'll treat you at simpang this coming sunday okey and i think we shall go shopping too! (since my pay is EVERY WEEK! ahakz!)

okey, thats about. hear about me soon!

2007-11-30T10:43:00.000+08:00

will be strating work on the 1st december 2007. yeehaa!!! feeling very excited to start work. can't wait to meet the poeple. its been 1 year since i left but still i'm glad that they remember me when i took my uniform measurement.

"you came back?!!" some random question that have been shoot.

since i'm waiting for the 1st decenber i have been going to and fro from the kindergarden and back home. this is simply simpree cleaning need to be done by the 1st december cause thats the day of tea session cum orientation. but still despite the spree cleaning been done, its not possible to join them starting of the day after today...=(

hope things will get better once i start my working life.

2007-11-25T11:58:00.000+08:00

its been sometimes since i last update. nothing much happened. have been going back and fro to tadika to help out some stuff and attending SATs meeting. but still i have fun and time to spent with the 2 girl for our "makan date" on 11 NOVEMBER 2007 and "sentosa outing" wif the SATs on 24 NOVEMBER 2007.

11 NOVEMBER 2007. SUNDAY.

makan date with the 2 girls, farlinah and nurulfah. the initial plan was to go paris ris park to take some pictures before going to simpang bedok for our sinner at mad jack. but since i all of us turn into a lazy bump that day, we decided to go straight to simpang bedok to have our dinner and some pictures taking done. had "teh tarik" before heading home.

the food that we ate. hehhe. non of us finish the food.

teh tarik session.

my sunshine. LOVE U!

24 NOVEMBER 2007. SATURDAY.

entrance of sentosa beach.

sentosa outing with the SATs team member. but unfortunatly, we are missing of 10 member in the trip.

the monkeys for the day!

barrying activities.

the fun the guys had.

the throwing humand activity.

eeee...snake!

we are at EGYPT!!!!

thank you friends for the encouragement and help in making me continue smiling.

2007-11-18T18:24:00.000+08:00

went bloghopping and came acroos with something interesting. so guys, do take note of this.

"words women use"

-fine-

this is the word women use to end an arguement when they are right and you need to shut up.

-five minutes-

if she is getting dress, this is half an hour.

-nothing-

this is the calm before the storm. this mean "something" and you should be on your toes. arguement that begin withing "nothing" usually end with "fine"

-go ahead-

this is a dare, not a permission. DONT DO IT!

-loud sigh-

this is actually not a word but a non-verbal satement often misunderstood by men. a "loud sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing and arguing over "nothing"

-that's ok-

this is one of the most dangerous statements that a women can use to a men. "that's ok" means that she think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

-thanks-

a women is thanking you. do not question is or faint. just say you're welcome.

-whatever-

its a women wasy of saying f**k you.

to the men outside, try observing how true this can be.

2007-11-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!!!

went to simpang bedok with the family to celebrate the brother birthday at spize. but before that went to meet the twin and the rest to hang around cause the parents went to johor for the monthly groceries shopping. the initial plan was to have lunch at hans river but since the grandparents is not use to eat western food we went to simpang bedok instead. let the pcitures do the talking now cause i'm simply lazy to type.

grandparents and birthday boy.

parents and birthday boy.

the siblings.

the happy family.

2007-11-15T21:43:00.000+08:00

'O' level is officially over. soon my working life begins. to my 5C1 classmate, i miss you people. 5 years and more been together really makes me happy. learning new experiences and kowledge together and alway rise to the occassion. appreciate every single one of you no matter how annoying and irritating but you guys are still great. love you 5C1! may you obtain the result that you wish for.

yup. not forgetting ulfah and farlinah. i will definitely miss you guys too!

the people that i work with.

they have been encouraging me to work hard to reach my gold.

they never fail to make me laugh

the most idiotic and annoying people but still they are fun.

the poa students and teacher.

14 november 2007. wednesday.

2007 4PM kindergaden graduation day. a last minute preparation have been done and of course there's some small little mistake here and there, but still is was considere perfect. being the emcee for the day was a total new experience for me. the advantage of being the emcee is there is a no need to run here and there to prepare the kids for the next items. just go up on stage announce and done! no worries no nothing.

principle busy at work .

chairman doin the last minute checking.

stress??...maybe....

last round of laughter before starting of individual duty.

graduation day come wedding ceremony.

SATS and PSG.

2007-11-07T10:42:00.000+08:00

hello evrybody!

after a long long break, i'm back in action!

after month of waiting now i cn pronouce that its OVER!!! not officially over, cause i got 1 final POA MCQ paper to go, but still i can now relax. 'O' levels is over and no wmy working life will begin soon. this mean i wont be broke. i can go out shopping shopping shopping everyday, week, motth and years! Ritz Carlton, here i come for you!

shopping list for me?

just at random. i want new skirt, jean, tops, dresses, shoes, watch and mp3 player!!!

okey. enough of my nonsense.

what have been happening to me for the pass few month?

nothing much. only 2 particular date i can remember.

29 August 2007, Wednesday.

the day i turn 17th. nothing much happened but still i had fun with my 2 girls, farlinah and ulfah. like farlinah said , you dont need a high class restaurant to clebrate your birthday but with good cehap food and good companion it will definitely make your day.

btol kan farlinah?

27 October 2007, Saturday.

Selamat Hari Raya!!!!!

a day out with my SATs. the people who makes me smile all day long and stand by me to give me the courage and strength to move on.

if you happened to read this here are some words for you: have the courange and strentgh to move on. i'm doin fine.

2007-07-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

yeah! at last fahrini is updating. hahaha.

what has been happening? alot! haha. not exactly alot.

30 June 2007, saturday.
sentosa, here i come!! woke up as early as 8.30 am just to get ready. no swimming of course. is just a gathering for mummy and all the workmates. its acctually a family day for URA, MDA etc..

when sisters stats to camera-whore together.

like usual. its saturday! its my day! went to vivocity with the family while the boy wait for me for 1 hr 30 min. hehe. sorry boy. it was totally unexpected that mummy and daddy wants to go to vivo. you see, they are simply not the shopping type.

yup. rush to Golden Villang to grab 2 ticket for the latest movie, transformers. its was such a long queue and the tickets were selling fast from 6.30pm to 11.00pm show. you see how good the movie is. no regret watching it. 10 starts for transformer.its a must watch show tau!!! but we still manage to grab the tickets for the 7.30pm show. 2nd row from the screen lagi! but its better than noting. grab a quick lunch before the show and its the end of the date once the movie is over.

1 july 2007, sunday.
woke up at 10 plus and got cheated by my cousin.

"when are you coming to visit gandma? if not u can visit me. i'm sick."

believing that she was totaly sick once she came back from Melacca. but its all a lie. see, such a good cousin. spent the whole afternoon at my cousins place. since its youth day the next day, i decide to tag along with my cousins to overnight at granny plce. rush back home to get ready my stuff and vvvvoooooommmm to meet the rest.

its 9.14 pm now. i'm off to watch my 9 pm chinese show. anyway. after this i won't be upating. will go on hiatus till th last day of my "o" level. jus to lazy. and when i switch n the coputers, there is no way for me to stop to study. without me realising soon its 11 pm and time to go to bed.

farlinah adam, please get my layout ready asap okey? hehe.

2007-06-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

hello i'm back!

what happened the last few weeks??

having my 2 short week of school holiday lah. fun but not that happening though. but still i manage to keep my day occupied. its been sometimes since i last update. i think i'll just blog at random. whatever came across my mind. i'll go by date okey?

12 june 2007
class chalat!

at the first thought i wasn't in the mood of going. but to think again, no plan and good food i simply make my way to the chalet with farlinah.

it was at changi. as what has been told by someone that the chalet will be by the road but unfortunately, it wad the one right deep inside where we have to walk up the hill where your left and right will be all trees. adding on the way up is damn sunyi. kalau lah kene jalan sendiri, comfirm aku lari macam masok marathon.

the intention was to go there and eat. and yup, that is what i do! pay 10 bux and eat till i cannot eat.

this is what we girls do.

guys will forever di the barbequeing.

camera-whoring is always fun.

15 june 2007-18 june 2007

15/06/07
woke up kind of early. get ready myself and make a last minute preparation and a last call. making a move to KL.

reach there around noon. check in. had a very good sleep. went out for an eary dinner and proceed to Petaling Street. went back to the hotel after which. went to the cafe to chit chat till early morning and went back to hotel. try to look for public phone but nowhere to be found.

16/06/07
being so bored staying in the hotel and not knowing where to go proceed to cameron. just a few hours trip. rest and relaxed. nice environment plus cooling weather.

once we fely bored, we head back to KL.

the most cooling waterfall.

the dangling bridge.

at its tea farm.

17/06/07
the day of excitment. proceed to Genting for 2 days and 1 night. of course once you reach there no thinking of going shopping. once check in put down out bag and voom. spent the whole day in the theme park.

a very interesting things is that Genting is the only place where you can find London bus cafe. its a 2 story but where its a cafe inside.

a view for the weather there.

the ride yang membuat jantungku terkeluar.

21 june 2007.
another chalet. but this time round was a gathering. not much activity but definitely lots of food.

no pictures taken cause i left the digi-cam at home. how stupid.

the rest of the days were just normal days. is either i'll sit and rot at home or away from home to town.

2007-06-10T21:24:00.000+08:00

08 june 2007, friday
its like finally! the very last day that i am going back to school for the month of june. after 2 whole weeks without fail i have been going back to school for extra lesson plus a course and workshop. which is even worst cause the sec 5 have been going back home like 4 pm in the afternoon for the 2nd week,excluding friday of course. i still prefer my normal school days cause i finish school way much more earlier.

dance pratice next. to prepare ourself for the appreciation day and green week day(something like that).

went home few hours ealier than them cause i have to rush to haigh road to buy some backing stuff. and a last minute invitation to ulfah's chalet.knowing farlinah too well i eventually said that i've reach tampines but acctually i'm still on my way walking, taking my own sweet time of course, to the bus stop.

09 june 2007, saturday.
miss the trip to vivo city together with sayy, sha, dayah and mel. of course i know i miss the fun and the oppotunity to meet her. and it have been sometimes since i last go out wif the rest.

but of course i only have 1 choice. went out on a date with the boy. full of memories and surprises. but we went home kind of early cause the boy is down with a very high fever.

before i even get myself ready mummy ask me "what time you you will be going out?"

"eeerr...late in the afternoon?"

"oh..thats mean you wont be studying today?"

"i did have tution in the morning?"

"oh...thats different...study means study...tuition means tuition..."

this is what i said to myself: "mom! i can sense that you are worry for me cuase i have not been forcusing fully on my study but its only the first day that i begin with my school holidays. dont you remember that i have been sacrifising my school holidays for 2 weeks and you were asking me to study? i got the weekdays to do it."

you see people have start to put lots of pressure on me, the tachers and parents.

10 june 2007, sunday.
normal math tuition at 10.00 am. at 3.30 pm proceed to the granny house cause we recived a call from the cousins saying that the granny sickness is back. so yup spent the whole day there together with the cousins and aunt.

and i feel more of the pressure when 2 of my cousins are going for their futher studies on bachelor of banking and finance and bachelor of mechanical engineering. and part of the topic was about having a dream and future. and thinking of my smart alex sister, and looking at her working on her assigment and doin revision for her exams every single day, just to receive a good cert, i dont think i can be as hard working as her.

can i be as good as them? can i do myself proud?

now i'm home updating the blog cause i seriously got nothing to do except to stare at the wall.

when i'm with them i miss you, when i'm with you i miss them. i keep on praying and wishing that 1 day we will be back together like the past. 4 month left for me to enjoy fully with all of you. cause i know after that we will be taking our vey own route following our own interest. left with 4 more month to bare with each other nonsense, which we have been doing for 4 years, and we will be leading the path of our own. i miss the day.

2007-05-31T21:54:00.000+08:00

for the next 4 days and 3 nights,

nobody will keep me company till i go to bed.
no more talking on the phone till late night.
nobody will call me in the early morning to wake me up for school.
nobody will call/sms me in the middle of the day to ask me "where are you?"
no weekend dates.

the reason is because the boy had just left for Kedah with his others 27 family members to witness his aunt wedding. i'm so going to miss him badly. now than i realise how bored and lonely i t feels when the love ones left you behind. plus none of the girls and friends is online. it feels that time will crawl very slowly.

oh boy, i'll be waiting and keep on waiting for your return. =(

2007-05-28T10:22:00.000+08:00

i've heard voices in the sorrounding air saying it has been sometimes ever since i update this blog of mine. this is because i hardly have any idea on what to update. but at least when i update i did update a long-long one right.

school holiday for the month of june has officially begins. what is the paln for the next 4 weeks?

first and second week, 28/05/07-10/06/07

28/05/07

mother tounge 'O' level. good luck to all my frineds.

29/05/07-8/06/07

the teachers have been extremely kind that they have plan extra lesson for the greduating classes and course like social studies courses and IT learning (sonftware & hardware). it took up 2 whole weeks okey. and its a no good because it will drag till the afternoon.

09/06/07

special day with the special boy. a simple but yet a sweet date.

third week,11/06/07-17/06/07

13/06/07-15/06/07

class chalet at changi! still considering about going or not.

16/06/07-17/06/07

cuti-cuti malaysia!

fourth week, 18/06/07-24/06/07

18/06/07-19/06/07

still on holiday. will be back on the 19 june 2007!

20/06/07

of to the market with the girls to buy the item for barbecue!

21/06/07

another chalet at changi! PARTY TIME!

24/06/07

school begins the day after "today". =(

back to the pass few days. friday was the parents meeting session. nothing impressive. but mrs liu and the mummy have been pushing and encouraging me to work hard. having the ability to progress is a waste when you don't work for it and especially when i have the plan on what to do next. almost got grounded by daddy.

"from now on no more going out. stay at home and study."

but you know being a good girl that has never been grounded before, i just ignore what he says cause i know daddy is just joking. am i right ayah? hehe.

grandma has been warded. the malays always say "sakit tua". and the grandpa has been staying with my family for the pass few day. this mean i have nt been enjoying my weekends! but its okey just for this week.

before i go, to my beloved sister, bother and cousins: bik roz just sent me siti and umairah pictures!!

siti raihanah & sarah umairah

i can imagine how pretty she is when she grow up.

i can see that when she will be mentel and manje when she grow up.hehe.

okey folks i better get going! selamat ber-exams kepada teman teman!

2007-05-19T09:35:00.000+08:00

FYI: i have change my shout box to c-box cause now i realise that i did not receive the message the people have tag...so yeah...now u can go on tagging whatever that you want.

2007-05-14T07:35:00.000+08:00

1 day off for ngee ann secondary! but for no reason i'm like awake early in the morning. but soon ill be on my bed cuddling my booster.

what have bee happening for the pass few days?

jeng jeng jeng........

10 may 2007. thursday.
end my mid-year exam with POA paper 1 which only took 1 hour and than its over. school ends like super early in the morning. this means i really have a very long-long weekend. went breakfast at afghanistan and headed back home.

afternoon plan was a date with the boy after he is done with his work. and thats about it.

had a night chat with farlinah and nurulfah about the plan next day.

11 may 2007. friday.
the plan was to have our 2nd chocolate fondue at the beach. but, it rains in the morning. plan was change but we totally got no idea where to go. beach still? or fort canning? or suicide bridge? or botanic garden? or museum?. the list continue.

farlinah told me "nie comfirm tak jadi sey..."

her pridiction was correct. we ended up sitting and rotting the whole day at home.

12 may 2007. saturday.
a Saturday! a day for me and the others (aisyah, ifah and nadiah). the usual day for us to catch up things with each other after being so busy with either school or work. this time we plan to have a group date.

to think that group date isnt fun? it depens on yourself but for me it is totally fun!

since the boy have been craving for murtabak at Zam Zam, we (ifah, the boys and i) had our late lunch there. $4 of murtabak for 4 of us with our own main meal. nasi briyani for me which is ultimately alot that i coundl't finish it! but i was damn super.

meet the rest at swensens since they we craving for the ice-cream.

proceed to Samar at Arab street to have our very long chat. if u were to ever go there please no ice latte for you cause the taste was totally sucks. a cup of coffee at the kopitiam taste way much more better. Samar was a totally wrong choice for us.

unfortunately fahrini bagaikan di pukau keep on forgetting to bring along the camera and i had to use my phone camera to snap the pictures but phone camera can be annoying especially when there is not enough space memory. so no much pictures has been snap.

13 may 2007. sunday.
math tuition as per normal in the morning.

after which, sis and i went for our menicure and pedicure appointment. nop. its not about paiting your nails but is just to keep it smooth, neat and clean.

stay the whole day at home. dinner was super late today.

oh ya. can anyone please buy for me a new computer for my birthday? or repair for me my current useless computer? please.

2007-05-04T19:52:00.000+08:00

having 2-3 hours of sleep for the pass few days wasn't a good feeling at all when i woke up in the early morning.

mid-year paper was totally sucks. from language all the way to counting of values. it makes my brain vain messy.

3 more papers to go and i'm done with it. but not totally done cause the majors paper are like, plus minus, 5 months from now. to ask the question if i'm ready. my answer will be totally no.

am i going to flung my mid-year? hopefully no.

2007-04-28T13:11:00.000+08:00

dance syf was a bronze.it was a good start though.

monday. 23 April 2007.

dance syf competition was held at NUS hall at around 16:15. we

upon getting ready.

orang bersiap mereka bergambar.

the orphane were on their way back home.

thursday.26 April 2007 .

first mid year paper begin on the thursday. that was english paper 2. it was okey. not too confident but still manage to do it.

friday. 27 April 2007.

paper 1 was on the next day, friday. it was a hell for me. cause i simply do not have any idea on what to write. the topic was super lame. i wrote about "what does being a singaporean means to you?". how lame can that be. i wrote whatever that came across my mine till i dont realise if the points was about singapore or being a singaporean. hhhhhmmmm.....

math tuition next. followed by a date with the boy.

saturday. 28 April 2007.

its being a long time since last i felt the feel to wake up late in the morning and not force my eyes to open.

social studies mid year on wednesday. now i'm thinking and kept on thinking if i want to go out this afternoon or just sit and rot at home.

any idea people?

2007-04-15T16:48:00.000+08:00

13 april 2007.

annual sports day 2007 was held at old jurong stadium. that was damn far okey!!! imagine how it feels to wake up like usual but assemble at a later time.

despite the very unpredictable wether, where one minute it rains and the other minute the sun shines, it can still be considered fun cause me and nurhee kept on cheering non stop. to think back that this will be the very last year for us we we decided to be very "semangat" like the sec ones. and surprisingly 3/4 of 5C1 came.

not much pictures were snap but i will still post some of it....

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5C1

4C1

2007-04-08T14:35:00.000+08:00

7 april 2007.

a very happening day between me and the boy. too much of ups and down.

the plan was to go to his friend engagement ceremony and than proceed to esplanade to have our chocolate fondue that i have been craving for a few days before and thats about it.

a short and sweet date.

tought of eating it at max brenner's (hopefully i got the spelling right) but it was too much for the two of us.

2007-04-04T18:39:00.000+08:00

i feel like updating but unfortunately there nothing for me to update.

toodles.

2007-04-02T18:56:00.000+08:00

before i forgot. this is something i want to share.

"a typical humand attitude"

2007-04-02T18:29:00.000+08:00

31 march 2007.

Nass Sports carnival was held on this particular Saturday morning. it was totally an event that waste my energy. 3 hours of just loitering and chit chatting around.

there was a list of sports for us to try such as street soccer, table tennis, archery, yoga and more. but i only tried the yoga. the queue for the archery was too long that we decided to skip it.

after all i didn't enjoy myself except for the camera whoring session.

breakfast for the bitches.

yoga for the girls,

and street soccer for the guys.

my funny-bunny.

i totally enjoy looking at her schocking face.

and of course i totally enjoy looking at this idiotic face of mine. =D

unfortunately shasha wasn't there too snap soem pics wif us.

2007-03-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

staying at home alone for 2 days straight can never been fun. especially during the weekend where everybody will be out to have fun.

the parents went to johore with the aunts and uncle. the sis went for swimming with the boy and the bro were out to have fun as usual. the boy went out in the afternoon when i;m having my nap. and me???

at home the whole day for 2 days straight! no one to talk to.

it makes the whole thing worst when i can't get myself online for nearly 2 weeks. this is b'cause it's due to the problem on connection. i can sumply surf the net but couldn't get myself online.

why?????

2007-03-19T19:25:00.000+08:00

today is the 1st day of the week and term 2. new mind set to school with a dream and goal which i hope i could achieve it by the end of the year.

encouragement and constant reminder to study is now very important to me so that i can stay forcus and never give up.

march holiday has over. enough of rest. really had a good break.

went shopping and ice-skating with the friends, including and excluding the boy. had picnic with the family and relatives. at the same time, school have never been a miss but on certain i decided to give it a miss. hehe.

but books was not set aside totally. on certain days it have been a very good companion.

somehow i realise that time flys very fast. really fast that we didn't realise that we are in mid march which soon it will be april. 4 month to go before i'll be sitting for my prelim. and soon i'll be the next batch that will be sitting for the next "O" level exams which determine where i'll go next. to all my friends that will together sit for the national exams, lets continue to work hard together towards our goal.

2007-02-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

i know its kind of late to update about chinese new year holiday but hey who cares.

here it goes.

chinese new year holiday was wisely spent with the family.

yup. i did went for my holiday. no, not to malaysia but to Batam. yes BATAM.

i tought it will be bored but surprisingly no. it turn the other way round.

check in, wash up and off we go to shop! shop! shop!, that's every girl sickness. is to shop the whole day and won't feel bored.

the next day is just to spent at the "kampung melayu" and had picnic at the beach.

night plan was to have our dinner and back to the resort to play fireworks. yes, its fireworks and not firecracker.

sleeping soundless-ly at the lobby.

the kedai runcit.

the 4th bridgr we cross to get to'
kampong melayu".

the clear beach beach at batam. way much more clear than sentosa.

having ketam bakar. yummy!

no dear. that's not a microphone its the fireworks.

mother hen and her chics.

making our way to the floating kampong.

the kelong.

because i'm the camera women, u hardly see me in the pictures. n my brother suddenly wants to snap alot of picture and there he goes!

2007-02-21T22:34:00.001+08:00

i promise i will update. yup i will. but not now. cause i'm just too lazy.