its 7 january 2008, 11.39 pm. here am i letting my mind run wild. ungu-tercipta untukku is what im listening to currently.

days, weeks, years have pass. going through the thick and thin, ups and downs together. memories is created between us. none of us would have dream this will happened but i can see it coming.

from strangers we became friends, from friends we became an item. now we are back to square one. i have see u change. from a school boy turning into a men during your National Service days. from a NS men u turn into a working men. from sunrise to sunset, working hard trying your best to give me happiness. from travelling by public transport we move own to our own tarnsport. i treausre the moments we went everything together. i appreciate the chance i have in seeing you change.

there's a saying "expect the unexpected." i realise that one day if we are not meant to be together, we will move on with our own ways. 1st june at 12.45 am u msg me, "im sorry i cant be bothered anymore, euu just move on with ur life n do whatever u want..i dont want any relationship or any shit to do with euu anymore...i think its enough..im sorie...euu take care of urself." to no surprise, the moment i receive that msg no tears roll down my cheeks. enough for me to kept on crying for the pass years. i told myself, the day when i found out you were out with her is the very last day that i'll cry for u.

here i am leading my way to my very own path. a path where i know on the very end there'll be someone sincere waiting for me, insyallah. 7 months have pass. i thank allah for giving me all the strength to stand on my 2 feet. i know i will manage to pull through myself. u left me 2 weeks of hari raya, a couple of days before my "O" levels. and i know that point of time despite us not being together you are still there to hear me crying. but now things have change.

to the boy out there, i wish all the best. i pray hard for your happiness. sent my regards to the whole family of yours and thank them for accepting me as who i am.

never say i love you if u dont care,
never talk about feeling if there aren't there.

never hold my hand if u gonna breka my heart,
never say you are going to if u dont plan to start.

never look into my eyes if all you do is a lie,
never say hi if u really mean good bye.

if you mean forever than say u will try,
never say forever cause forever makes me cry....






"in memories"
seainnfiurl
since beginning of 2005-1st june 2008