08 june 2007, friday
its like finally! the very last day that i am going back to school for the month of june. after 2 whole weeks without fail i have been going back to school for extra lesson plus a course and workshop. which is even worst cause the sec 5 have been going back home like 4 pm in the afternoon for the 2nd week,excluding friday of course. i still prefer my normal school days cause i finish school way much more earlier.

dance pratice next. to prepare ourself for the appreciation day and green week day(something like that).

went home few hours ealier than them cause i have to rush to haigh road to buy some backing stuff. and a last minute invitation to ulfah's chalet.knowing farlinah too well i eventually said that i've reach tampines but acctually i'm still on my way walking, taking my own sweet time of course, to the bus stop.

09 june 2007, saturday.
miss the trip to vivo city together with sayy, sha, dayah and mel. of course i know i miss the fun and the oppotunity to meet her. and it have been sometimes since i last go out wif the rest.

but of course i only have 1 choice. went out on a date with the boy. full of memories and surprises. but we went home kind of early cause the boy is down with a very high fever.

before i even get myself ready mummy ask me "what time you you will be going out?"

"eeerr...late in the afternoon?"

"oh..thats mean you wont be studying today?"

"i did have tution in the morning?"

"oh...thats different...study means study...tuition means tuition..."

this is what i said to myself: "mom! i can sense that you are worry for me cuase i have not been forcusing fully on my study but its only the first day that i begin with my school holidays. dont you remember that i have been sacrifising my school holidays for 2 weeks and you were asking me to study? i got the weekdays to do it."

you see people have start to put lots of pressure on me, the tachers and parents.

10 june 2007, sunday.
normal math tuition at 10.00 am. at 3.30 pm proceed to the granny house cause we recived a call from the cousins saying that the granny sickness is back. so yup spent the whole day there together with the cousins and aunt.

and i feel more of the pressure when 2 of my cousins are going for their futher studies on bachelor of banking and finance and bachelor of mechanical engineering. and part of the topic was about having a dream and future. and thinking of my smart alex sister, and looking at her working on her assigment and doin revision for her exams every single day, just to receive a good cert, i dont think i can be as hard working as her.

can i be as good as them? can i do myself proud?

now i'm home updating the blog cause i seriously got nothing to do except to stare at the wall.

when i'm with them i miss you, when i'm with you i miss them. i keep on praying and wishing that 1 day we will be back together like the past. 4 month left for me to enjoy fully with all of you. cause i know after that we will be taking our vey own route following our own interest. left with 4 more month to bare with each other nonsense, which we have been doing for 4 years, and we will be leading the path of our own. i miss the day.